4 weeks to go!

I absolutley cannot believe we only have 4 weeks til Mason will be here! Devon and I both have mixed emotions. Should we have waited? Will we divy our time up well enough with 2 kids? I am mostly worried about not being around Alyiva for a few days when I go into labor. She IS well taken care of, but it breaks my heart when I don't get to spend much time with her during the week anyway.

My baby shower went well. Small and casual. Mason got lots of summer onsies, which will be the BEST for, well, the rest of summer! I found a killer deal on a pump on Craigslist. Before you gag, I will be boiling everything before it is used! Buying from craigslist was suggested from a few fellow mommies, so I did it! Saved a good $200. And I will be picking it up tonight!

Devon and I took a mini vaca to Myrtle last weekend to visit some friends. Without the little one. Oh I thought I was going to BAWL when we left, but I did surprisingly well the whole trip! It was needed. Much, much needed. We relaxed, a lot. Devon's friend works for North Myrtle FD down there - and his wife is also my friend!

Alyvia is growing by the day. She is getting so, SO tall. She loves to mimick everything I do, but do things on her own too. Potty training is still in progress. She'll go great when she's nakie, but will wet her panties if we put them on her. HMPH. We're still working on it! She loves to help around the house, and we do a lot of dancing while cleaning :)

My new hours are Mon-Wed, 8:30-5. When Mason gets here, I will take 6 weeks maternity leave, and hopefully soon after that we will know if Devon is any closer to getting a FT spot. He is testing for Madison Twp in a few weeks!

We are also moving soon! Hopefully we can find a house to buy within 6-8 months. Needless to say, we still need your prayers for various reasons! I am trying to continue to walk in Faith and know that something will happen for us, SOON!

It started way back in 3rd Grade.

First things first... Go check out some of our maternity photos HERE!

This weekend marks one year of marriage for Devon and I. One hard, hard year. There were times I didn't think we'd make it. And I am sure we will have many more of those times. But I know we can.

Always,

And Forever.

I love you Devon Jasper.

Hormones have taken over.

I cry about everything. New songs, tv shows, text messages, seeing the homeless on the streets, mean words said; everything. And these hormones have made it worse. I don't remember if it was this bad when I was pregnant with Alyvia (not remembering THAT makes me sad), but it surely has taken its toll on me. Right now, I am just overwhelmed. Tomorrow is Devon's physical agility test for Delaware and I KNOW he will do great. He has been down in the dumps the past day or so though and I really don't know how to react. He rarely ever shows that - and when he does I have no idea what to say or do. He is not one to show when he is upset. So when he does, I am totally thrown. That makes me sad. I feel like there are more things that I DON'T do right than I DO. I hate it. I have no degree (yet), we have to move for a variety of reasons and that makes me feel unstable, I am a nervous wreck that I wont be able to give Alyvia the attention she needs while Mason is here. On top of other things....yeah, I am a mess.

I keep praying about these things - and I know waiting is a lesson in itself; I need to have patience. So in the mean time, I will continue to keep praying.

With Flying Colors.

You have probably seen me ranting and raving on FB about Devon taking a few tests for CFD and DFD (Delaware FD) the past few weeks. Here are the results; out of 326 people who took the written test, they were taking the top 60 scores to move onto the physical agility test. He was number 12 on the list. TWELVE. He had the third highest score, but they made the list in alphabetical order and there were ties too. Did I mention he was TWELTH? I am beyond proud of him. He tested better than people double his age, with more experience with these tests AND in the field. I am not bragging (ok, maybe I am), but how could I not? He scored a 95% :)

SO - the next step is background check, then physical agility. He tells me he isn't nervous, but I know he has to be at least a little. I just have a good, solid feeling about this one. I think its time. Its time for us (HIM) to catch a break and live life. And I have faith in God. He tells me it is going to happen. It will.

June 11th, 8:40AM! Say a few prayers for us!