Denial.

It's the last week of March.
Christmas, New Year's, Birthdays.. they have came and went.
Spring is here.

I am two days shy of 25 weeks pregnant.
My girl registers for Kindergarten next Friday.
Mase will be three just a week after we welcome Miss Emery.
Which is only 15 friggin weeks away.

My kids and  belly... they are all growing.
The nights are becoming restless for me.
I need to do this, and do this, but this first, but I just wish I could sleep.  Are we ready?  Is D ready?  Are we ok?  I forgot to brush the kids' teeth.  How much house can we afford when we are ready to sell?  What should we put in the kids' Easter baskets this year?  I wish I had my own support system.
I wish I could take more than 7 weeks off.  I wish I could just stay home, period.  Or not.  Maybe part time.  But I love our sitter.  I need to pee.

Devon has been at his current job for a year already.
A year of adjustments, a year of blessings.
Soon, the flowers will bloom and everyone will be complaining that it is too hot.

Soon, very soon, our family will be complete.
It is all happening too fast.
I am in utter denial.

(A little over) HALFWAY THERE!

Baby number three will be here in less than 19 weeks.  Our last sweet, spunky, fun, challenging, beautiful little heathen will be here so. friggin soon.

Mommy update: I am finally popping out. For the longest time, you could barely tell I was pregnant.  Today I found out my blood pressure is extremely low, so that would obviously explain my dizzy spells and light headedness.  I have put on 20 pounds already.  Yikes.  My girls are sore all the time and I am trying to do squats and calf raises three times a week to keep a presentable booty.  I really, really want more intimate maternity photos this time around.  It’s our last one, and I want to go out with a bang in a sense. Cravings are salads, ice cream, and cereal.

Emery update: She is almost a whole pound – 14 ounces.  Her heart rate is 142 and she is an active little booger.   Daddy got to go to the ultrasound today and that filled my heart.  Her little profile is so perfect.  She is measuring 21 weeks 4 days.

Mason’s pregnancy was an emotional one.  The whole 40 weeks I was a hot mess.  I have been doing a much better job handling it all.  This week it has really hit me… all those emotions, about everything.  I don’t even know where to start.

Alyvia brought home three outfits for Emery yesterday.  She went shopping with Granny and asked if she could get something for her baby sister.  It is so humbling to know that she already thinks of her so often, wanting to include her in so many things.  She has the biggest heart.

This Saturday we will be purchasing baby furniture…from Ikea!  We are finishing up our bedroom this week.  She will be sharing with us for a bit, and if we decide to put off selling our home more than a year, we will transition Alyvia’s room for sharing.  It will be fine either way, I know it will, but I want to give my kids everything I didn’t necessarily have.  Including a stable home and their own rooms.  Everyone has their own opinion on this, but it’s always going to be the way I feel.  We will get there with patience and a plan.

Here’s to 18+/- weeks!  EEEK!